January 3, 2011

The Perfect Fire

I sit down in our chair, as you make a fire.

I watch your every move.

Slow, careful, precise-you make no mistakes as to where you want each log.

This is why I love you.

You know what you want, and you make no mistakes in trying.

As you stack the logs and light the match, I wonder how you chose me.

I know what made me choose you, I know exactly what it was.

Out of nowhere, I realized what was in front of me.

Your laughter, your voice, you loving tone,

The hugs, the kisses, the nights on the phone.

The smiles, the dimples, the holding of hands,

The music, the fun, the future plans.

The dates, the times, the moments shared with you,

The ball games, the beach days, the rainy days too.

I should have seen it sooner, but I am glad it took so long.

You are the harmony to my heart’s song.

You look back at me, and I see that smile of yours,

Grinning, planning, something precious, I’m sure.

The fire is lit, you walk over to me and sit.

You take my hand, hold it tenderly, and whisper “I love you.”

I loose my breath and start to cry,

that’s when your true colors show.

You wrap me up in your arms, hold me, love me, say again!

You kiss my face, forehead, cheeks, chin, lips.

You say it again, “I LOVE YOU” and I whimper,

Softly, my voice is cracking, my hands start to quiver.

I look into your eyes, I see it, it’s there, you really do, Love me.

This is the first time I have heard those words come out of your mouth.

I look up at you once more, I try to speak,

then you say, “I Love you More.”

I think in my head, “How did you know?”

You sigh, “Your face gave you away.”

In this sweet moment, I now realize,

he knows, and it’s returned. I am free.

I can fall, and I know you will fall with me,

to catch me, to be with me.

You look in my eyes, and say it again,

“I Love You.”

I love that word, “Love,” the way rolls off your lips.

Then, to my surprise, you say to me,

“The day is not over, I have something to say,”

I’m searching for something, I don’t know what, but I look.

You stand up, press “Play” on the remote, take my hand, and we dance.

The most beautiful songs about love, hearts, being together forever,

You stop swaying with me, you drop down on one knee,

You look up as you pull a box out of your pocket,

You hide it so I can’t see, and then you ask,

“Wilt thou Marry Me?”

As a solemn tear falls, I nod, vigorously,

“Yes” I manage to get past my quivering lips.

You open the box, and inside,

sit’s the most precious stone I had ever seen.

Small, dainty, beautiful, and made just for me.

You slipped the ring on my hand,

and told me every thing that you had planned for our future.

My heart was becoming overwhelmed with joy.

You said you wanted children, many children, and a home in the country,

You said you wanted to take care of me.

Everything I had dreamed for, you wanted.

I had never told you my dreams, at least, not these.

“I LOVE YOU” You shout one more time.

I say it back, slowly, softly, tenderly.

Like the fire you had built up, the night was shaping beautifully.

All of this, from just three words, simple ones at that.

“I Love You,” so powerful, so honest,

This night turned out amazing,

For this, I am Glad.

Creative Minds

Well, I went to bed last night, or technically at 4:37 am this morning with my book weighing heavily on my mind. I have come the realization, my book is so close to being completed, I am getting nervous about getting it published. I will be my own publisher, I don't feel like anyone extra making a profit off of my hard work. The printer I chose is amazing, they don't hit you with hidden fees and they definitely don't get "a cut" of your hard work. They make their money by offering a professional designer session, or by the way you design your cover.

I think it is really cool that they offer it up for the writers to be in complete control of the publishing process. The company helps you get your ISBN and you LCN and then imagine everything else, they let you set YOUR OWN PRICE!! You decided how much you want your book to be. And even better, I made a simple design choice the other day, just playing with prices, and I can print 100 paper back copies of my book for around $3.25 per book! That's not bad at all! That's amazing considering what I chose for the cover...but that is just a simple black and white cover.

I really hope that I can get the show on the road soon and get my first one finished and printed this year. It may take me a while to get it done, considering I am going to need to do some fund raising to get the ISBN and LCN purchased. They are not that expensive, but the decision is, do I want to buy in bulk? How many books am I going to be able to write? If I by in bulk, I can get 10 ISBN's for a relatively low price. That's a good thing ya know.

Maybe I will write a book that contains several of my poems and short stories....who knows what this year has in store for me!!